A year in a lifetime...

It's been 2 and a half months now since my move back to the Netherlands...

I realised it would difficult to make a radical change again and knew in some ways what to expect but still things always turn out differently to what we hope for. After my move it took a while for me to ease down and find some inner peace which I know is very important in situations like these. Because life in this hamlet is so slow and nature is very close I had time to review and relive the past years again. And very interesting things came to surface. Things I will pick up on in the near future.

I can confirm I have been absolutely blown away by Brighton and its people. I already knew I have been enjoying this place but never knew how deep comfortableness can reach until your home changes again. It's very comforting there is a place on this planet which we can call home. In the future I will definitely return. One of the many reasons why I moved back is also the break up with my wife. I never had/took the time to process all the emotions and only found space to really reflect recently. It's hard to realise you have to let go of some of the best things that happened to your life. She used to be like a compass and would show directions and when this disappears you wander in void for some time. At the time I was lucky I also changed jobs so  I had a distraction which would take up all my energy and time. And as so often life will catch up with you on that. There will be a certain point at which things become more clear because time and space are in better harmony.

Yesterday would have been our 6 year anniversary. I have been thinking about it all day and all day I had this song following me around in my head. It's freaky how this band has been releasing songs which seem to sum up my life so perfectly.

It's time to walk again...

"But he wants so much
Not to live another lie
To be free and high again
Trying to see the blue sky above the rain
Trying to see the blue sky above the rain
Remembering the blue sky above the pouring rain
He's trying to see the blue sky above the rain..."